I wanted to say something to you that has been kinda dominating my thoughts. …..
You told me that who you have become or the choices you have made are not you. And you are right they aren’t you at all. That is not the person I know. If you don’t want to be that person only you can change. Even if you don’t know who you want to be. You have already told me how you are now is not like you so you must have some thoughts to who you are and who you want to be. So do it be the person you want to be. You will be happier being the person you want to be.
I think we all go through a point in our lives where we have no idea who we are and what our purpose is. Some people never truly find out. You can only live. Do the things you love. Do whay comes natural. Do what makes you happy. You don’t have to define yourself right now or even at all. Just live for what matters live for what you love. And don’t let anyone tell you who you need to be. Don’t ever let someone define who you are.

Just me boom.

Just me boom.

Not sure if what happened or if you will see this…. just know I am here if you ever need me….. I am here if you need to feel that safety you told me about…. I hope you find everything you want out of life. I hope she treats you like your everything to her. And I hope you get the help you need. I hope in the end you are happy. genuinely happy no more putting on the happy mask. Just know if you need me I am here like I always have been.

Here vendettavenousvirtue@gmail.com if this makes it easier to explain.

Anonymous: yeah i just don't know like freaking anything right now.

Can you explain that some more…..

Anonymous: I feel like a shitty person because I can't leave you alone.

If this is who I think it is…… you are not a shitty person. I understand for the most part why you don’t leave me alone. I never really told you to anyway. It was your choice to leave. You said it would be better…… maybe you don’t have to leave me alone….. I am not sure what is keeping you from talking to me like we use to. To be honest I think of you a lot anyway. I look at the stars and I think of you. Regardless of whether we talk or not you are still there. Maybe you can’t leave me alone because you still want what we had. I honestly don’t know only you know what you want. So do what you want. You are not a shitty person you never were. Don’t say that about yourself. Just do what your heart is telling you or your mind. Don’t let other people tell you what you want.

If I am totally wrong about who this is I am sorry…..


Wow that’s deep, holy shit

I need to talk to someone…… anyone. ..